You know when sometimes you have those moments where you think you have life figured out. You know everything that you need to be happy, and make a plan for the future to make sure you retain the perfect life you have now figured out. I don't have those moments anymore. I don't have those feelings of accomplishment, of figuring life out, of feeling confident about a situation. I am living more now than ever before in a hazy, unsure future. It's scary. I don't feel confident in anything. I don't feel confident in myself. I also get scared of my heart. I fear it's power. I constantly try to hide and avoid it.
I definitely don't have myself figured out. I have a lot of really basic things of my daily routine and emotions figured out. I know my thought processes. I know a lot of things that may seem overly sure of things, but as a whole, I don't have myself figured out. Even though knowing those things about myself come off as loud and prominent, they are only a small portion of me. They just are the most visible.
I have been having a lot of stuff in my head lately. A lot of thoughts. A lot of desires. A lot of ideas. A lot of opinions. A lot of emotions.
It's getting crowded.
I will tell you more later. I am back for good.
(...not simple, as you can tell.)
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Hi there Dan, my name is Cameron and I was reading up on your journey. I had a quick question and was hoping that you could email me back when you have a moment. Much appreciated, thanks!
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