Ramble?

I think I like posting blogs where I ramble on and and with nothing really intelligent to say. But I only like the posts when I am creating it. I look back and read over the post and get upset with myself for posting it, fearing that it will portray me as less of a writer. Which puts me in another intense thought process where I argue with myself on why I am trying to be a better writer. I am no writer. I have no desire to be a writer. But I stress it. I shouldn't. And I continue to.So here I sit, late and night, not being able to sleep. I'm watching Good Eats with Alton Brown on the Food Network. Which actually depresses me. I enjoy cooking so much. It relaxes me to be in a kitchen. Since I currently live with my grandma, her small little kitchen wouldn't suffice my desire. But it will be ok. Once I get my own place in the future, I'll be cooking non-stop. And I am not cocky about really anything, but I am a damn good cook. That is one thing I will be confident in. The only person who challenges me, is my mother. And I'm ok with that.

I'm bothered I can't sleep. I randomly took a nap after work today which is now preventing my highly desired dreaming. I have to get up in 6ish hours to go running before work. Definitely trying to become more healthy and more fit. Trying to eat well, exercise daily, you know...typical stuff. Also trying to detox myself. I am currently using those Kinoki Pads you put on your feet while you sleep. They then take out all the toxins in your body. From people I've heard who use them too, one girls skin cleared up after she started using them. So we'll see how they do. Also plan on buying some of those colon clean out systems. As weird as they may sound, they have a good purpose. Also good for weight loss. Your colon holds around 15lbs of fecal matter that is just stored up over time. Gross eh? But it must be done. Anything I can do to help me be healthier.
Mental and behavior health is important too. I would highly recommend to order any product by Tony Robbins. It will seriously help build your mental and behavioral state to its healthiest potential. I haven't taken the chance to sit down and dive into the program like I want to, but already with the bits and pieces of the program I have done....its already made things much more clear.

I think sleep is needed. Thought processing and typing on my little phone here is becoming difficult. Anyway, I'm out.