If its in a can....

it smells like either two things.

or...

Patience......what the hell is that?

Obviously I have none. Good thing? Bad thing? I would guess that it depends on the issue. But let me tell you what made me think of this. Last night I had to do one of those emergency loads of laundry. The ones where you need to go to sleep but you need clothes to wear the next day. So you put on a load and sleep deprive yourself in order to stay up and change out the laundry so it will be ready by morning. Now I was on my last load in the washing machine. It was on the spin cycle. It was a very small load (2 shirts) so I figured it didn't need to spin for 10 mins. I hit the pause cancel button and it stops. But the machine refuses to unlock the door because the cycle was never completed. So I set the cycle to drain and click start. It starts up. If I would have just waited for maybe a minute or two more, I would have been able to get to bed sooner. But my impatience for the machine to end made me sit there for another 20 minutes while it did a spin and drain cycle. Patience.....non-existent.

I have a pair of Sevens jeans that I have worn for the past year. They are hella comfortable, worn in, and simply make my butt look good. And thats a plus for a dudes butt to look good in jeans....isnt it? Doesnt happen often right? I dont know. I'm not checkin out other dudes rear ends. That was more intended for a female perspective. But my jeans have over time developed a hole in the crotch. Once a small hole has now become a massive canyon of denim and boxer briefs. But yet I continue to wear the jeans, even if they do show off my wonderfully sculpted testicles......*crickets*......because I love them.

You know how people who drive big, jacked up trucks think they own the road and drive fast and treat cars around them like they are insignificant? Well one of those truck drivers got what was coming to him today. Flipped his travel trailer on the interstate blocking off all lanes and making me late to work. Was I upset though? Not at all. No one got hurt. But the truck and trailer suffered damage. And you could tell this young buck was definitely one of those pricks who you would encounter taking up three parking spots at Wal*Mart.

Movie Reviews

So I have been thinking lately that it would be fun to do a movie review post every so often. I like going to the movies, but rarely ever do. If I made it a point to go, maybe I'd go more. But one thing that makes me unsure whether I should or not is, Im not going to go to all movies that are released. And I think that is what the problem is with most movie critics. They critique movies they do not relate to and have no reason to be watching. For example, I am not going to go watch the Hannah Montana movie and tell you my views on it. Most likely, I would hate it and want to watch something else.

So why are there movie critics out there who do ALL movies? Sorry Roger Ebert. I just can't find your opinion to hold any ground.

Twittttttter

No one likes this. I LOVE IT. I'm addicted. I won't lie. We're in a transitional phase where it is still frowned upon to be addicted to technology. But I don't care. I WILL LIVE MY LIFE! But it does give you a nice look into other peoples lives and how they spend their days. Much more interesting than mine. Much much more. Here...let me show you.

Mark Hoppus from blink-182.

Mark Hoppus probably Twitters from the moment he wakes up to the moment he falls asleep. And also the 5 times throughout the night when he wakes up for random work out sessions. What's FUNNY about the picture that you see of him to the left, is he is actually INSIDE Twitter. That's when he was at Twitter headquarters checking out the place. And also drinking their alcohol which they didn't even know was there. But probably one of the best people to follow on Twitter. You will be highly entertained by his Tweets, and will receive updates about what bands he is producing, blink-182 updates, and a lot of pointless banter about answering emails(like a boss). Mark is average on posting pictures on his Twitter, but he doesn't floud you with them. One great thing about Mark's Twitter, is he will link you to his blog where you can get more pictures and more information on the daily activities of Mark Hoppus. Whether it be pictures of him at Skywalker Ranch, or him walking down the red carpet at the Australian MTV Music Awards. Mark Hoppus will flood you with more information than you really wanted to know about the old rascal.

Taylor Swift

This is Taylor Swift. My celebrity crush. Hellllllloooooo! Ok Taylor does not update her Twitter that often. I'd say maybe once or twice every other day. But it is really her and you do get to see a lot of her personality in her posts. I usually don't check her Twitter too much, just for the lack of posts. But I will admit her video blogs on her Youtube are awesome. She makes all of her videos herself and they are quite entertaining and funny to watch. So I am no longer promoting her Twitter I suppose. Go check out her Youtube. It'll get you much more into the life of Taylor Swift than you thought you would ever be. Videos of traveling the world and at home for the holidays. Best thing about it all, it makes her seem real. More genuine.

Thrice

I love Thrice. Definitely one of my most favorite bands ever. This band is one of the few artists out there that I actually consider true musicians. They create some of the most beautiful, yet hardest music. Lyrically, Dustin Kensrue is in a league of his own. Topping all others that I can think of. His words have tugged at my emotions more than any other artist I have listened to. But not only do the words effect me, the way the music combines with those words so beautifully make this band highly respected in my eyes. One reason I love to follow them on Twitter, is how they bring you into the studio and writing process. They give you an inside look at the song writing, touring, and concerts. They also allow you to see how much hard work they put into recording. From building componets to receive better sounds in their studio, to showing how they have had to deal with recording and communication through their guitar pickups. Also an artist who will post pictures on a daily basis, giving Twitter a little more excitement than just a regular status update.

John C. Mayer

Probably one of the most fun persons to follow on Twitter. Well... that is when he isn't speaking in German. But John Mayer gives you a view into his world. Also, depending on what celebrities you also follow, you can see his many conversations and comments on them or their Tweets as well. John also likes to post pictures of his daily adventures and things that he sees. One thing that is great is he has in the past given away free tickets to fans for his shows. So thats a plus. Its also nice since Twitter ISNT that huge, you have a much better chance than you would think you have. One person I definitely recommend to follow. He isn't annoying, doesn't post anything that gets in the way, just good quality posts.




You know...thats all I am going to post about for now. Enjoy my thoughts.

I was driving to work this morning contemplating birthday gift ideas for my mother. I still need to get her something, as seeing that I am about 6 months late on it. But I will get her something none the less. I know of a writer that she enjoys whose books haven't been in print for some 50 odd years. I got her one of those books a few Christmas' ago, and she was shocked to receive it. But since that time she has purchased many books and I am not sure if she owns more of this same authors work.

I thought it would be great to have a database, like you would see online when shopping for something, that tells you whether it is in stock or is owned, but strictly for personal use. Where each holiday, birthday, wedding, etc. you could look up a persons specific database. You could check to see if they have certain items for the gift you have in mind.

That would help me out greatly in buying gifts. But as you can tell, I am bad at purchasing gifts.

Lately, been on a health kick. And by kick I mean KICK MY ASS. Though I am eating healthier (or at least attempting to) which is good. Also been working out a lot. I really wish the weather would warm up because I would like to go running. Good cardio would make all this excess weight drop right off. But we'll just keep on waiting.

Thats it for now.

Get me out of here...I DO NOT BELONG!

I have sat at work all day today stressing over the fact I have to be here. Frankly, I need to eat. I would not be doing this shit if I didn't have to. But what would I be doing if I were not here? I honestly haven't a clue. But yet here I sit full of energy, anticpating the moment in which I can leave. I have realized things today that effect my future. As of this moment I have nothing that is stable. My job is what most of you will consider stable. But I will not be here forever. I do not want to come to this building everyday to listen to people scream at me as to why their money has not been deposited into their account, or that the system in which they make the money is not working. Red in the face, I'm sure, upset at ME that I somehow messed up. 90% of the time it not even being a fault by myself or the company in which I work for. When it actually ends up being their own fucking fault. It seems evil. All these people getting angry, and fiery mad. Having no respect for the person on the other end. All over money. It doesn't seem right. It upsets me that this is what I subject myself to everyday. This is not meaningful. Why am I wasting my time being here.

Oh yea, I need to eat.

I like being Dr. Dan. When did I become this person where friends of mine come to me for their problems? I don't mind it, but it's nice that they come to me for my opinion. I have a lot of female friends who pain me over and over. Just because they don't get it. This will be the worst written entry on this page by the way. No thinking, just typing what comes out. Ok, back on topic. Currently, my friend is dating boy. Boy hears from ex that she is pregnant. Leaves friend and goes back to ex. Days later, breaks up with ex again and tries to return to friend. No bueno. Cut from the team.

Also, other friend is casually dating boy. Friend loses virginity to boy. Boy explains he wants to the best for friend. Boy starts acting distant and hard to understand. FRIEND DOESNT GET IT.

Thats as simple as it can be written. Maybe they will read this and get it. Knock knock.

I am wanting to expand. Create hobbies in a variety of different medias to keep myself busy. Lately it feels like I am busy in supplying the needs for other people. Out of 100% of my day, maybe 10% at MAX is done doing something that is strictly for me. My own time. Sometimes feeling trapped. There really isnt enough time in the day. I want more.

I just moved into my grandmas house because I NEEDED a place to live. Within only a matter of days I am realizing this to be a mistake. I no longer can live with family. After living with my girlfriend for that past few months and finally moving out to some place new, moving in with family is depressing. Family gets into patterns to where they don't see you out of what they already know of you. I am not being seen as an adult male. I am being seen as the baby of the family. Maybe this is a subconcious way of feeling younger. (Someone just brought cake to my desk. BOMB DIGGITY!) But none of the things in my life that I consider priorities, are seen as priorities to them. I will always stay young. I will always act like I am still in junior high. But that does not prevent me from taking responsibility when I need to. I do not find my place of residence as stable. I have no place to call home right now. If I were able to, I would live in an apartment by myself. The idea of living on my own is relaxing to me. In high school, I talked with friends on the joys and excitement we would endure by being roommates. After many roommates and living quarters, I have realized it is not enjoyable. It does nothing but actually break those friendships. So I will search to find a single apartment. We'll see if I can find something stable. I would like to go home. I just need to find it first.

(This cake isn't THAT great.)

I will market myself. It doesn't matter what you think about it. I do not intend to gain anything but the satisfaction in myself. But you will see. I will work on it.

That is enough for now.

A beautiful mind....

I've always been amazed on how the mind works. I've pointed this out before to friends of mine. The fact that we can remember so much small detail about things. Think of this for me; Think of every name of every person you know. Then think of every memory of all those people. Then think of things that remind you of them (songs, smells, etc.). Then think of how your brain can remember songs, lyrics, parts in a song where an instrument does something. It goes on and on and its amazing. But the reason I am even talking about the mind and how it works, is how it will take over your entire body. It will physically effect you at times. I recently broke up with my gf and was devastated by it. But even though I was so tired from not getting much sleep and working all day, I could not sleep. My brain was still actively preventing my sleep because my thoughts could not escape her. And then it has the control of making you feel sick or not hungry even. It also sometimes will control itself and not allow you to have any control. I would try to focus on other things and be productive, but I found myself drifting off into day dreams of her. Non-stop. It still is happening now. My thoughts have been hi-jacked to do only one thing. And that is think of her.

Your brain can also be indecisive. For example, I dont want to think of her because it will make me miss her. It will make me depressed. It will make my mood horrible. But then I also want to think of nothing of her. Because I miss her so much that I want to take each thought that I have and dwell on it. Because right now, that is the closest I can get to her.

Your brain can make believe. Day dreaming is awesome. You see a movie in your head and that movie is playing out with the characters and story line that you want. All my mind is day dreaming about is how I can mend the tear I caused in us. Stressing myself on finding the perfect words to say to get everything that I want and that she wants. I picture my approach and my tone and my words, and imagine how they will play out. Then change them and see how they will play out. And when I decide to play out one of the scenarios I am day dreaming about and make it real, I will not have those perfect words to say. I will shake with a tremble in my voice not being able to keep it at a tone I would like. But if I put that sincerity into my eyes, it wont matter what I say, or how I sound.


Pretty much all I am trying to say in this blog is, I made a mistake and broke things off with someone I truly love and care about greatly. I have torn myself into pieces trying to find a way to get her back in my life. I have taken the problems we have and said "There is no solution" when there are plenty of solutions.

I will fix this. If you truly care about something you need to fight for it, and I was blind before. I didn't fight. I will win her back.